longgggggggg break

wa!!!!! What a long break.
I am Now like "一个人头两个大"
i don't know how to translate to english so... too bad
wow, CO resume, Sec 1 join us, I kind of like them and see hope in CO, Really!!!!!
but then something unhappy happened in class
as in, my class people treat me like a servent in class. i do all the admin thingy,
but then once i forgot to bring a homework, wow. die.
nobody ever thing wat i feel man.
then is like that stupid class never ever remember my birthday.
how nice of them.
i am just like a vast in class lor.
then is like nobody ever treat me as human man. more like servent.
at home also.
does this mean that wat i do is wat i am suppose to do.
so this mean that my life is a servent.
i want to be a person who can lead or infulence people, but it does not help.
no matter how hard i tried, everything gone to waste.
i don't even feel happy even at home. only when i am with my Cello.
but then i use up all my emotition playing Cello, but i was said to have no feeling while playing.
that make me feel like i am falling from the top to the bottom of the well.
worst of all, i am always iqnore. i don't know why.
talk to people, they just don't bother me. maybe my voice just don't have the cute sound that people will notice.
it hurts and i don't dare to talk to people offten now.
so if u notice i don'e talk much now, u know why.
a smile will just bring everything over.
i don't know wat to say.
i don't know wat to do.
i am just forgetful this year and hope for a better life. if just that someone can come to me. come to me and fight with me, i don'e mind what the class will say. just only if he comes to me.
am i just a girl who just smile and look happy, but actually a no body child????